Thursday, August 27, 2009

Rainy Thursday

My cousin Mike has been having a hard time lately.

He is fighting this cancer bs too!

He was diagnosed about 2 months or so after me with brain cancer and I think he is getting tired. Tired of being readmitted to the hospital. Tired of all these surgeries, tired of not being able to walk at times, tired of the nausea, tired of all the poisonous medicine that is supposed to help kill off the bad cells but hurts the good cells as well.


I'm praying for him constantly and hoping that he doesn't give up, though I understand. Yeah I understand.

It's hard man, it's hard fighting everyday just to live.

Simple things like getting out of the bed seem impossible. Showering, eating or getting dressed is not even a thought.

Mike is so not used to hospitals, doctors or medicine. His religion says to pray and not turn to modern medicine.

His mom, my aunt, died 2 years ago from tumors on her spine. We're not sure if it was cancer or not because she didn't go to the hospital until it was too late.

He is really getting tired. *sigh*

We go to the same hospital for treatment but we have different doctors and different treatment plans.

I don't want him to give up but I know how hard this is.

He stopped eating and the headaches have come back and he doesn't want to get out of bed. He just wants to sleep all day and don't even think about having a conversation. He's starting to nod yes or no. Talking just drains him and trust me Mike is a TALKER!!!!!!!

Not good. Not good at all.

He was admitted again yesterday to the hospital and his wife is gone on a spa trip with my mom. My mom takes a busload of folks up to a spa/casino in Michigan every year.

She needed to get away because being a caregiver, as we all know, is stressful as hell!! She needed this in a bad way!

They will be back tomorrow evening though so I hope and pray that everything will be ok until she returns.

I hate this disease so much!!!!!!!


  1. Even as I type, my husband has spent the day (13 hours)in the hospice with his siblings because her disease has spread and her breathing is impaired. He only came home, because she actually improved from her downward spiral this morning. I keep texting him and telling him as long as she is on this side of the grass, there is hope. I remember a quote from a management seminar i went to over 20 years ago..." Never take away anyone's hope. it may be all they have"

  2. I am so sad to hear about your cousin. I will pray for him and I wish the best to your family.

  3. I can't imagine a place of having no hope. I pray that things turn around.