Thursday, December 31, 2009

Happy New Year!!!

The end of 2009!!!!!!!! So long sucka!!!!!!!! You have been dismissed!!!!!!!!!!

Let's lovingly embrace all that 2010 will bring into our lives. Health, happiness, love, peace, prosperity, comfort and joy. All that and then some ya know!!!!

Hoping 2010 is all that you want it to be. I'm sooooooooo looking forward to what this new year brings to my life. Ahhhhhhhh!!!!!!!! I made it yall!!!! Never could have made it without Him!!!!!!

From the Brown House to yours, have a very Happy and Healthy New Year!!!

Big Bunny hugs, peace and love!!

Sunday, December 27, 2009

Christmas 2009

This Christmas was THE BEST EVER!!!!!!!!!

Last year at this time I felt as if I was going to die. I was lying in a bed with a horrific, highly contagious, infection from hell (CDIFF), healing from cancer surgery and thrown in a hellacious pit of menopause from having a hysterectomy. Just sick, sick, sick.

What a difference a year makes!!!!!!!!! Whoooooooo Hoooooooooooo!!!! Thank You Jesus!!!

On Christmas Eve I went with a few fb friends to an area under Lake Shore Drive where the homeless stay and gave out bags of toiletries and food. It is incredibly sad to see them with all their belongings under the city and in the cold. I wanted to cry but seeing them smile and thank us was heartwarming. The guy that organized this, locked his keys in his car that day. So he busted the window out and cut his hand badly. Fool had the nerve to post the damn pic too. Just yuck. So he couldn't come with us. Just us three women. Over 29 people said they would come and help but you know how that goes. *sigh* I think we passed out about 50 bags in all.

Later , Mom and I went to midnight, well 10:00pm mass at her church. Then we came home and watched the Pope get tackled by some deranged woman, (poor Pope). Watch his security detail increase by a thousand. What is it with folks wanting to harm the pope? I so don't get it man. Folk just straight whacked out there in the world!!!

Got up early the next morning to take 2 pans of dressing over to my church to help feed the homeless and needy for Christmas. It was packed!!!!!!!!! Our pastor said the need was going to be great as our church gave out over 700 turkeys this year and had to turn away soooooooo many. He was distraught over that because I don't think he ever had to turn folks away. The economy has got to get better man!!!

Came home opened gifts with mom and then passed out cookies and cards to the neighbors in the snow and rain!!! Loved it!! LOL!!!! Still have three bags to pass out because two neighbors weren't home and another had their gate locked.

Back at home again I had a quick bite to eat then we left to go to my Dollface's house. She had a house full of folks! She has an extremely big fam and her 6 cousins live right next door to her LOL!!! She gave me the cutest candle holder and votive. I'm a candle fanatic. I light them just about everyday! One of bff's was a part.yli.te consultant years ago and I still have tons of candles plus I buy them from wherever when I smell a scent that is decadent and yummy.

Left from there and went out to my cousins house for dinner, drinks, fun and fellowship. My cousin Mike had been doing good recovering from his third brain cancer surgery but now he's having headaches yet again. *sigh*

Whenever he has these intense headaches we fear the cancer is back because that is what has happened in the past. He's going to the hospital tomorrow because he doesn't feel he can wait any longer for his appointment. Praying constantly for him to be fully healed and well again.

Drove home very cautiously in the snow and ice. We had a terrible ice storm on Christmas day/evening. I cruised home all the way and we were snug in our home at about ten-ish that night.

The next day I went to my friend's new house and laughed and talked. It's coming along nicely. She's having some work done on it. The very light mint green paint in the dining room is beautiful and her accent wall is painted a berry red color that makes it pop when you first enter the house. Just gorgeous. Went to dinner with our other friend and her kids and watched her 12 year old twin boys max their food. Those little boys know they can eat!!!! LOL!!! Then we came back to my house and her kids played with the Wii that I bought myself for Christmas. So far the tennis game is my favorite and no I haven't won a game yet!!!!!!!!

So I had the most amazingly simple but yet incredible Christmas holiday ever!!!

I'm alive, semi healthy (lol) not sick and in the hospital like last year and it feels AWESOME!!!!

I hope everyone had a good holiday and shared it with people you love the most.

Thursday, December 17, 2009


I was feeling a little bit down for the past couple of days but now I'm feeling a little bit better. Went to the doc today *what's new right?*, everything is awesome!!! Blood work looks good, of course the colonoscopy came out good, only thing is my iron levels are low, which happens all of the time with me. So she said she's giving me two months off!!!!!!!! Hallelujah!!!!!!!!! I don't have to go see her until February!!!!!!!!!!!! Whooooooooo Hooooooooooo!!! Of course this is the oncologist. I see my gyn the first week of January and I have to schedule an appt with my surgeon to get the hernia repaired but I am not even gonna call until after January. I want a total reprieve from all my docs for at least two weeks!!!!! Love em all but hate em all at the same time!!!!!! LOL!!!!!!

Tomorrow would have been my dads 75th birthday. It's been almost 20 years now that he has been gone. This is what really gets me down during the holidays because I miss him soooooo much!!! I always wanna run away to an island and forget all about December when I'm in this funk. Then it passes and then January rolls around and I'm depressed again because that's the anniversary of his death. *sigh*

Baking cookies for a holiday party this weekend and eating waaaaaaaaaaaaayyyyyyy too many of them. I must get this under control cause the waistline is expanding and since ya girl can't get any real cardio in this is just sucking majorly for me. I put two and two together just last night with my increased irritability and not working out. I have to find some sort of exercise to do to get those feel good endorphins kicking again. My mind and body need help desperately!!! I have been such a b*tch lately. I don't want to be around people, just want to hibernate, ya know. I want to be left alone. My brother felt the wrath the other day. I basically told him to kma and get the hell outta my way. He's always trying to riddle and rhyme me to death and I WAS NOT IN THE MOOD!!!!!!!!!! He left outta here quick, fast and in a hurry. So much so that he left his winter gear for work in my mom's trunk. I called and left him a msg but he didn't return my call. *shrugs shoulders* Good, I didn't want to talk to him anyway!!!!!! Boy gets on my nerves!!!!!!

Missing the hell outta my troubled soul. That kid is hurting, hurting, hurting!!!! Praying constantly for him, nothing more I can do. He's locked up and for a long time coming. *major sigh*

On the upside of things, I'm going to see my Dollface tonight in her holiday concert at school. Ya know she joined the choir *rolls eyes* but we talked earlier this week and if I can find lessons for her on a Saturday she said she would take violin again!!!!!!!! YAY!!!!!!!!!! I'm stoked!!!!! Cause you know I didn't want her to stop taking lessons, little hard headed chica!!!

Cold and blustery here today in the Chi so I made a big pot of chilli and we will be eating that for the next few days.

About to go to the postoffice and mail off some stuff. I'll be in there for a minute I know. Last minute procrastination sucks LOL!!

In spite of all that has happened to me this year I am soooooo eternally grateful to be alive and so grateful for all the wonderful people who have touched my life through this blog and over on fb too! Hope your holidays are filled with Peace that surpasses all understanding, Joy that knows no boundaries, and mostly Love that fills your heart up til you almost burst!!!!!!!

Love yall to reeses pieces baby!!!!

Just in case I don't make it back to the blog before the holidays! Merry Christmas to you and yours!!!!!!!

Wednesday, December 2, 2009

It's over!!!

Yeee hawwwwwwww!!! The test is over, no tumors, polyps or nothing. The doc said I didn't drink enough of the prep. o_0

Yall know how I struggled with that mess, just yuck. I tried, I really did but I just couldn't choke down anymore! It took me 12 hours to get in about 3 cups. I just can't with nasty drinks! Whatever man, he saw what he needed to see and that was good enough for me!!!

I'm happy again!!! Doing the George Jefferson dance all over the kitchen, baking sugar cookies and drinking some delicious cinnamon flavored coffee!!!

Ahhhhhhh! Life is good. Let's get this holiday season started yall!!!

Peace and love!!!

Tuesday, December 1, 2009

Jesus take the wheel...

I am drinking this horrible crap for the colonoscopy tomorrow. Father God in heaven who comes up with these disgusting drinks???? I am sooooo serious. They gave me a gallon bottle to drink, da hell??? I ain't gonna make it. I started at about 3:00 this afternoon, it's now 9:00pm and I think I have consumed a cup and a half. It's bad yall, really, really bad. Holding my nose and gagging back the crap. Ooh wee I wish I had a magic wand and it would be all gone and the test would be over. I'm such a big baby when it comes to tests!!! *sigh*

Ok I have to be finished in two more hours so that this stuff can clean me out. On the plus side I haven't eaten all day and I'm not even remotely hungry. How is that???? Whatever, I am sooooo not complaining on that end. They said I could have clear liquids, juice, broth, jello, tea, black coffee, yet I've had not one thing. All I want to do is finish this drink and go to bed and get tomorrow over and done!!

Just took another sip, YUUUUUUUUCCCCCCCKKKKKKKK!!!!!!!!

I can do this, I can do this, I can do this, I can do this.