Thursday, December 17, 2009


I was feeling a little bit down for the past couple of days but now I'm feeling a little bit better. Went to the doc today *what's new right?*, everything is awesome!!! Blood work looks good, of course the colonoscopy came out good, only thing is my iron levels are low, which happens all of the time with me. So she said she's giving me two months off!!!!!!!! Hallelujah!!!!!!!!! I don't have to go see her until February!!!!!!!!!!!! Whooooooooo Hooooooooooo!!! Of course this is the oncologist. I see my gyn the first week of January and I have to schedule an appt with my surgeon to get the hernia repaired but I am not even gonna call until after January. I want a total reprieve from all my docs for at least two weeks!!!!! Love em all but hate em all at the same time!!!!!! LOL!!!!!!

Tomorrow would have been my dads 75th birthday. It's been almost 20 years now that he has been gone. This is what really gets me down during the holidays because I miss him soooooo much!!! I always wanna run away to an island and forget all about December when I'm in this funk. Then it passes and then January rolls around and I'm depressed again because that's the anniversary of his death. *sigh*

Baking cookies for a holiday party this weekend and eating waaaaaaaaaaaaayyyyyyy too many of them. I must get this under control cause the waistline is expanding and since ya girl can't get any real cardio in this is just sucking majorly for me. I put two and two together just last night with my increased irritability and not working out. I have to find some sort of exercise to do to get those feel good endorphins kicking again. My mind and body need help desperately!!! I have been such a b*tch lately. I don't want to be around people, just want to hibernate, ya know. I want to be left alone. My brother felt the wrath the other day. I basically told him to kma and get the hell outta my way. He's always trying to riddle and rhyme me to death and I WAS NOT IN THE MOOD!!!!!!!!!! He left outta here quick, fast and in a hurry. So much so that he left his winter gear for work in my mom's trunk. I called and left him a msg but he didn't return my call. *shrugs shoulders* Good, I didn't want to talk to him anyway!!!!!! Boy gets on my nerves!!!!!!

Missing the hell outta my troubled soul. That kid is hurting, hurting, hurting!!!! Praying constantly for him, nothing more I can do. He's locked up and for a long time coming. *major sigh*

On the upside of things, I'm going to see my Dollface tonight in her holiday concert at school. Ya know she joined the choir *rolls eyes* but we talked earlier this week and if I can find lessons for her on a Saturday she said she would take violin again!!!!!!!! YAY!!!!!!!!!! I'm stoked!!!!! Cause you know I didn't want her to stop taking lessons, little hard headed chica!!!

Cold and blustery here today in the Chi so I made a big pot of chilli and we will be eating that for the next few days.

About to go to the postoffice and mail off some stuff. I'll be in there for a minute I know. Last minute procrastination sucks LOL!!

In spite of all that has happened to me this year I am soooooo eternally grateful to be alive and so grateful for all the wonderful people who have touched my life through this blog and over on fb too! Hope your holidays are filled with Peace that surpasses all understanding, Joy that knows no boundaries, and mostly Love that fills your heart up til you almost burst!!!!!!!

Love yall to reeses pieces baby!!!!

Just in case I don't make it back to the blog before the holidays! Merry Christmas to you and yours!!!!!!!


  1. Woo, woo, woo girl. The blues are the blues, and you know how that go. If you gottta snap on folks, snap away...

    Glad for the reprieve from the docs. But I'm most happy that all is well with your health. Get that hernia fixed, and go back to the cardio!

  2. I'm glad you're keeping the blues at bay. Hugs! :)

  3. Happy Holidays and I loved your random post~ I feel very up to date now :)