Thursday, July 30, 2009

Radiation begins today

I'm on my way to my first radiation treatment. You know how excited I am right? Yeah not so much! I asked how long the procedure would take and the lady on the phone said about an hour or two. I'm clicking my heels in the air again!!! I can soooooo do this!!!!

Dollface has another jam packed weekend filled with activities again.

Saturday -Tennis lessons AND her bff's tea party at an actual Tea Room! These childrens and their parties!!!! Later that evening she's staying over at that friends house for a sleepover. Uh, I'm nervous, this is her first non-relative sleepover. I'm gonna be frantic until she calls me the next day.

On the same day her oldest sister is having a trunk party/bbq. But I don't think Dollface will be going because it's pretty much the same time as the tea party and they are on complete opposite sides of town.

Tennis lessons start at noon til two. The tea party starts at 2:30 - 4:30 and the trunk party starts at 3:00 - 7:00.

I talked with her coach and he said she could do an hour of lessons, so we will leave tennis at 1:00, run home get her showered and changed into her party dress and fly out to the burbs for the party. Then I'll have to come back to the city for the trunk party after the tea party is over.

Ooh I'm tired again LOL!!!!!

Happy Thursday!

***Update***

Today was simply a consultation with the docs and an exam. So they think I might have to have 5 weeks of radiation, that will be given everyday Monday-Friday. Side effects are mostly fatigue and the dreaded d.

*Chanting to myself*

I can do this, I can do this, I can do this, I can do this.

With His help of course!!!

Tuesday, July 28, 2009

Great America


We had a ball but baby I is tired!!!! Walking around a theme park all day long is tiring as hell!!! Man I was whooped. We were there from noon til 10:30pm and we got home around 12:30am Uh yeah a great day at Six Flags was had by all but once is surely enough for the season.


They didn't do the waterpark at all. It takes up too much time and the kids don't get a chance to get on as many rides. So this year they skipped it. Speaking of the rides, why did my Dollface punk out of all the thriller rides???? Girlfriend was like no thanks, I'll pass. Her cousins were all confused because she rode all the goodies last year with them and with me in Florida but she wasn't having none of it this time. She stuck with the safe rides. It was all good though.


I got on The Batman ride and it was enough for me!!!! I rode on a few other rides but mostly just watched them all have a ball!!! Whoo baby did I say I'm tired???? She is too.


Tennis lessons on Saturday, birthday party on Sunday, theme park all day long on Monday = a crabby, whiny, tired Dollface on Tuesday!


Pray for us LOL!!!


It's a little after 1:00pm and we're about to get showered and ready for another adventure. Totally easy and local summer fun though. Cause this sista is beat down!!!


Happy Tuesday folks!

Sunday, July 26, 2009

Happy Birthday to Dollface


Oh my gosh what an awesome day for my Dollface baby girl! Chica changed her mind about the menu for her tea party at the last minute, no less. Instead of the cutesy finger sandwiches, girlfriend opted for hotdogs. The girl is a mess!!!! So it was about 11 little girls all cute as heck, all dressed up like little cutie patooties!!! The weather was soooo nice. Not too hot, sun shining with blue skies. Just the best day to be out in the yard. They did little arts and crafts type of stuff. Made bracelets, necklaces and friendship pins. Then they ate and played party Bingo. They had a good time!


Tomorrow we're headed to Si.x Fla.gs with her cousins and aunts. Big fun continues!!


Uh pray for me cause I'm tired already!!!!!! LOL!!!!

Thursday, July 23, 2009

Random Thursday

Wow this summer is flying by. It's already the end of July and I haven't done half of the things I want to do before it's over. Well we did a couple of things, nothing big, just basic good summer fun stuff.

If ya didn't know chemo is over HAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!! I'm just tickled pink about that!!!!!! I'm currently getting iron infusions because my iron levels are low. That's nothing new. I've always been anemic. Two down three more to go. Easy peasy!!

Took Dollface out to the tennis courts today. She's getting better every week. Do you know that little girl is just about as tall as me? Hell, she's only 8, she has no right being as tall as her godmother!!!!!! My babydoll is looking me straight in the eye. It's very weird but she's still my dollfaced baby girl!!! Anyway she got quite a few shots over the net that I couldn't return. T.W. fist pumping for days on her end!!!! Hilarious!!!!!!!

My brother has given me a new nickname...Woodstock. He's a fool!!!!!!! My hair is wispy like Snoopy's sidekick, thus the name. But it is growing back!!! YAY!!!!!!!!! By winter I figure it should be fully grown in without my scalp showing. I sure hope my eyebrows grow back too. Now that is some crazy stuff. Hair just falling out like it did. I simply pencil in some lines and throw some mascara on the teeny bit I have left. That gives a little illusion of brows.

My weight is definitely playing tricks on me. Every three weeks during chemo I would lose and gain like 10-15 pounds. Uh how come I'm about 20-25 pounds heavier than I was when I was first diagnosed. *Shakes fists* Those damn steroids!!!!! I told yall I was gone blow up behind them suckas!!!!!!!!!

Working out and eating better is going to bring it back down I hope. Just have to stay motivated to lose the extra I gained during treatment and get some more off too!! My cute summer clothes from last year are now tight!!!! YIKES!!!!!!! I don't play wearing clothes that don't fit and every time you bend over your azz crack or muffin top is showing. OH HELLZ NAW!!!!!!!!! Not cute Bunny!!!!!! Not cute at all!!!

The Doll will be 9 come Sunday. She's having a tea party. Lawd help us. It's going to be super cute I hope. Why did she just call me and tell me to make lem.on blos.so.ms? That chile, I swear she cracks me up!!!!!! So I'll make em tomorrow cause Saturday we will be running around with tennis lessons and seeing Shorty Boss sing in a fake Ameri.can I.dol type of competition. Then church on Sunday and of course her party. I'm tired already. LOL!

I'm scheduled for a radiation appt next week. Uh, not looking forward to it but I know I have to do it. UGH!!!!!!!

My car will be paid off this year, Hallelujah!!!!!!!!! And I only have like 23,000 miles on it. Yep 6 years old and very little mileage!!! Yes sir!!!!!!!

MJ's passing was so surreal to me. I could hardly believe it. I surely hope his soul has found peace. Did you know that my MJ (Mick Jagger) and the king of pop collaborataed back in the 80's and had a hit called State of Shock? I loved that song, then and still do now!!!! I love anything with Mick in it. I'm a huge fan/stan whatever you want to call it!!!!!!

Single women who go after married men make me sick! I mean really what type of desperate heffa are you? I'm so damn glad that I'm not insecure and have to seek out attention by any means necessary. Just a nasty ass mess! Just UGH. Get away from me with that BS!!!!!! I'll never, ever have you around any of my married friends cause you just reek of desperateness. Gross!!!!!!! As a matter of fact I'm keeping you at a distance too. Don't want any of that grime rubbing off on me!!!!!!! And these are supposed to be people who are wrapped up in the Word. Just a big ole nasty mess!!!!!!

My troubled soul is in trouble again. I've said my prayers. That's about all I can do for him. It pains me but there is absolutely nothing I can do for him now. One of these days he is going to learn, or not. *shrugs shoulders*

After I get a clean bill of health from my many, many doctors, my ass is going to look for a job! I need to get back out there amongst the working folk!

Bi.g brot.her is back on again. I love this crazy show!!!!! Every summer I'm glued to the tv!!!! Wacky and outrageous folks make me laugh my butt off!!!!!! That house is totally dysfunctional and you know that makes for some good azz tv!!!!!

I so love my good girlfriends. These chicks will have you cracking the hell up til your sides ache!!!!! Planning a getaway with three of them next month.

Now that is going to be fun!!!!

Tuesday, July 14, 2009

Beautiful day!








Today was one of those beautiful days! I took Dollface out to the tennis court, she was whining and pouting the whole time. Girl betta stop playing with me! It's too nice to be cooped up in the house watching tv and playing video games!!!! Plus she needs to practice on her footwork per her tennis instructor. My brother enrolled her in a junior development tennnis program for the summer.




*Sidebar*




G is a total tennis nut!!!! He played for years in tourneys and such so he feels this is THE game for Dollface. He went and bought all her little shirts, shoes and socks too. Dude wasn't playin'. He said he was doing this for her and he came through. Love him for that.




She plays every Saturday for two hours and babydoll is getting much better. Hopefully she can continue throughout the winter months at the indoor tennis club as well. I'd love it if she could stay active in this sport. V and S Williams anyone?!? LOL!!!!




Anyways I took her out today for an hour and she was.not.happy.about.it.at.all. That is until we got out there and she started having fun hitting the balls back and forth with me. She especially likes it when I miss hitting the ball back to her. *Insert Ti.ger Wo.ods fist pump move here*


It's a big victory to her when she does that. LOL!!!!




It was sooooooo beautiful out. The sun was shining, the sky was an awesome blue and it wasn't too hot. Just made for a good little game of tennis, or practicing playing tennis, if you will.




Now it's looking as if it's gonna rain any minute and my girly girl is reading a book. Godmommy laid the smackdown on her. She hasn't really been doing anything brain stimulating and I need to do my part in not letting that brain go to mush this summer, ya know?




My Oncology nurses called me last week after chemo and told me my iron levels are super low. So now I have to do five weeks of iron infusions to boost it up.




I can do that with no problem. One hour a week for five weeks, easy peasy!!!!




Chemo is over baby!!!!!!!!




YAY!!!




Freaking fracking chemo suckkkkkkkkkkksssssss!!!!!!!




I did it, it's over!!!!!!!! Thank you Jesus!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!




Aiight yall I gotta go cook dinner.




I've got a big azz smile on my face!!! I'm soooooooo happy!!!!!!!!!!

Wednesday, July 8, 2009

Run around Wednesday

Day after chemo suckkkkkkkssssssss!!!!!!!

I did however, after my morning puke festival get up and get outta here. I had some errands to run. I had to pick up my city sticker from the alderman's office ~ $75.00 bucks ouch!!!

Ran over to Mich.aels. to pick up Dollface a new dollface baby that is similar to that AG doll I bought 2 years ago and a dress for it because the doll comes without any clothes on. It's her birthday at the end of the month. My babydoll will be nine years old. Where does the time go?

Hit up factory card outlet to pick up some cards. My mom's good friend was diagnosed with cervical cancer last week and they said it's not treatable :-(

Sending a card and plenty of hugs and kisses to go with it!

They gave her a minimum of two years. *big old heavy sigh* But I rebuke that prognosis because only He knows the time and hour that we will depart this earth. She may very well live much longer than those two years that they have thrown out there and if I know the Duchess, that's what we call her because her husbands nickname is Duke, then I know she will be living her life like it's golden baby!!!

Went to return my overdue library books and to see if they had Carleen Brice's "Children of the Waters", on hand. It won't be in a library here until the 18th of July. I found this author by way of that Original Old Girl herself, LadyLee!!! I read her other book, Orange, Mint and Honey and it was such a good book, that I want to read this one as well.

Stopped by Pete's Produce to pick up some strawberries, greenbeans and smoked turkey tails. Came home picked and cleaned the beans, threw all of them in the pot and now I'm about to chow down on it!! After I take my next dose of anti puke medicine that is!!!

It's been raining all day today with a high around 65 degrees. I needs me some sun because all this doggone rain is making me sleepy as hell!!!

So whatchall got going on today?

Monday, July 6, 2009

Winding down

I am so glad for tomorrow because it is my very last chemo treatment!!!!!!!!! I'm feeling ecstatic and a little bit hesitant not wanting to jinx anything ya know? God has really held it down for me because I didn't lose my freakin' mind behind this mess. He just gave me that peace that knows no limits. That Jesus peace baby! Oh man God has been sooooooooo good to me. These past few months I have been living a wonderfully, blessed life in spite of my little storm. I just keep telling myself that He hears my prayers and the prayers of many, many others on my behalf. Those who have just stepped up and interceded for me when I was down and didn't think I'd make it. I made it yall!!! I'm celebrating when it's all over, trust and believe.

Right now I'm recovering from mucho partying over the weekend. I haven't been out like that in forever!!! I'm talking getting 4 hours of sleep in two days type of partying. I'm way too old for that ish!!!!!! LOL!!!! But I still made my way to church on Sunday. Gotta give Him all the glory, honor and praise!!!

I love my life right now. I mean I know I have a bunch of shortcomings, we all do, hell!!!!!!! I ain't perfect, my life is not perfect but I'm here!!!!!!!! I'm alive and I'm living and breathing and life is sooooooo good!!!!!! I love all of you all out there for checking in on me and just praying for a sista! Yall are awesome!!!!!!!!

One more freakin', frackin' chemo treatment baby!!!! I am so fucking happy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I could scream and kick my heels in the air, dangit!!!!!!!! But you know I can't kick no heels in the air. I'd fall and bust my azz for sure!!!!!! Then I'd be back in the hospital for some more crazy mess!!

These past two weeks have been really good for me. Dollface and I went to the Taste of Chicago and we had a good time. We ate a lot of tasty food, saw a bunch of folks, walked down to Buckingham Fountain and took pics and just had a really, relaxing, fun filled, eating day!!!

Last weekend I went to the 40th annual Pride parade and got a bunch of trinkets, beads and goodies. We had a blast watching all the floats and bands. You haven't experienced anything until you experience a pride festival!!!!!!! Many, many glamorous queens strutting their stuff and just workin' it out!!!! Them divas be doing-t it baby!! All in 4 and 5 inch heels. Just a bunch of crazy, adult fun!

This weekend I hung out with one of my good friends, we partied like crazy and ooh boy my butt was ti-red!!!!! We went out for breakkie after clubbing hard at IHOP and she found a piece of brillo pad in her pancakes. Uber gross!!!!!!! I taped it too. We were trippin' hard because the mgr was sooooooo nonchalant about it. Never going to that IHOP again, never, ever, ever!!!

Took the Doll to soccer tonight and she wasn't feelin' it AT ALL. My brother had taken her out earlier to play tennis so chica was whupped!!! I wasn't feelin' it either at one point I asked her was she ready to leave cause I was hell!!! Just being honest here. LOL!!! She didn't want to leave though cause she thought she'd miss getting her snacks.

~Rolls eyes and deep sighs~

Whatfreakin'ever Dollface.

But now I'm resting because the last, last, last chemo treatment is finally here and I'm done and I'm overjoyed!!!!!!!!!!

Hopefully it won't do me in too bad. I'll be down for a couple of days and then back to my old self again, I pray.

Baby I can't wait!!!!!!!

The brillo pad incident from this past weekend.
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