Well here we are in 2010. A brand new year is underway and how does it start off with me and the Doll? Horribly!!!!!!!!! Whenever she has a break from school, when it's time to get back in the swing of things, we butt heads like two rams!!! 'Cept she's a Lion and I'm the Ram!!!! Two strong signs, both wanting their way. *sigh*
Day two of homework did not go well, not at all!!!
Let's just say she walked out of the room and when I called her back, she wanted NOTHING to do with me. Went straight to my mom and balled like a baby and would not come talk to me until my mother damn near had to push her to go.
You know my heart was crushed!!!! I mean she didn't even want to look at me. She said I pushed her too hard and that she had no clue what she was doing today. I do tend to raise my voice when I KNOW she KNOWS the work but is putting forth absolutely no effort to do it. That ticks me off to no end!!!! Give me something that lets me know you're at least trying. Don't just sit there and stare at your hands kid!!! She wasn't feeling me at all after that.
We've been going through this for years now. Sometimes I don't know how to reach her and sometimes we just hug it out and we make it work. Lately I haven't been so patient and will give up and just say go on to the next subject. I'm no teacher, that's for sure. Today really put me in a bad place. The look on her face just tore me up and I wanted to crawl under a rock and die! By the time she was going home, we were good. I told her she should talk to her teacher first thing in the morning and have her to explain division again because she still doesn't grasp the concept of how and why. Dollface tends to overthink everything. Her teacher has told us this a few times. She knows how to add and multiply but she doesn't get this division thing at all. Seems simple and I tried to break it down into even simpler terms, whereas she understood while I was explaining but when it came to writing the process down she couldn't do it.
She's growing up and quickly. I'm not supergodmommywhocandonowronginhereyes anymore. I don't know if I can handle all of this challenging me stuff. Hell I know I can't handle it!!!
Being a parent/teacher has to be the hardest job ever!!! *big ol heavy sigh*