Saturday, September 5, 2009


You know the title of my blog is Now What? Simply meaning what is going to be thrown my way next because it seems stuff is neverending. I'm almost completed with my cancer treatment and I am really saying NOW WHAT a lot!!!!!!!

This year has been a series of tests, doctors, surgeries, more tests and more damn doctors. I swear if I never have to see another doctor again in my life...

Last week the blog world lost a special person...Nikki Harris. I wasn't a regular reader of hers but I did read quite a bit of her writing and was always blown away by her style. It was like smooth as silk. Words always intrigue me. I love how someone can write something and it seems so damn effortless, ya know? I think the time I started reading Nikki was when she busted out some fool for faking her death. I mean Nikki was like Inspector Gadget on dat ass and rightfully so cause that fool took it too far and Nikki was not pleased.

She is loved and missed by many in this internet land and IRL. I didn't know her personally but can so totally feel the void of her presence shared by her many, many friends. May God welcome his newest angel to the land of sweet honey. That's how I view heaven...just sweet and delicious.

I over did it again this week and am paying the price today where I am soooooo not able to make it out of the house. Straight chillin' in the place to be. Ha!!!!! Was supposed to be a bbq. It's soooo not on!

Jim-May it's OWN. (Thanks NOT! LOL!!

I was told that during radiation treatment that I would experience bouts of exhaustion and to take it easy so today is all about rest. Still in pjs at 6:19pm. Didn't even make it to chuuch.

Tomorrow is 1/2 off day at the thrift store. Guess where I'll be bright and early in the morn?

Went to the farmer's market again yesterday. I didn't do as good this week though. I got a load of veggies but the prices changed considerably IN A WEEK!!!!! Yowsa!!!!!!!

Last week I ate a ton of veggies and fruit and I so felt the difference in my body. I am really considering giving up red meat for right now and then slowly work on giving up meat all together.

I gained 25-30 pounds during this cancer treatment and I calls bullshit on this man!!!! Going on a fast this week cause I got some stuff I need to work out with God and I really can not, will not re-gain all the weight I lost. That surgery was much too much and it will not be in vain. Plus staying healthy is really going to be my main focus!

I've been juicing everyday and that helps me considerably with my digestive system. I think I need to invest in a better juicer though. One that doesn't take all the pulp and stuff out of the juice. I can't help but think I'm missing out on some nutrients by not having that extra stuff in there.

I've noticed my teeth have shifted and I soooooooo don't know what to do. I had braces for a million years and I so don't want to go down that road again. Yeah I read that I would have dental issues after chemo, WTF!!!!!! It's neverending, I swear!!!!!!! But I'm good that means my ass is still alive right, right?!? Just something else to deal with. *sigh*

I'm watching Tiny and Toya right now and surprisingly I like it. So different than what I expected. Goes to show you shouldn't judge people period. They have issues just like me and you.

I ate a turkey burger about an hour ago and now I have a headache. UGH!!!!!! It's veggies and fruit for the rest of the night!

FB has me hooked for real. I play the little games on there and am such a fool for that networking site.

I miss my dad a lot more when a bbq holiday rolls around. He so loved everything about the summer. I wish I could feel one of his hugs right now :(

My Dollface is excited about starting the 4th grade. I'm excited too. Back to the brain factory she goes! I can't wait to see what this year holds in store for her.

Just realized I didn't take my vitamins today.

I'm going to make cookies for the bbq tomorrow. Hopefully I won't be over tired and will actually want to go.

Radiation session #2 on Tuesday. UGH!!!!!!!!!!! Me no likey, it's way too invasive.

Big Bro is on in a few minutes. I <3 that show!

Hope everyone has a safe and fun Labor Day.


  1. Fruit and veggies do the job, dont they? I've been vegetarian all summer and it virtually wiped out many of my issues. I am kicking myself for not doing it in the past.

    Go through the radiation. I myself take a chemotherapy drug that I detest. But there was a time when these things weren't available, leaving us with no hope. So I appreciate it all now. It is all temporary. To get us to that place of "better".

    Nikki will be missed. The memorial service was beautiful. She would've been pleased.

    Have a good labor day.

  2. No pain, no gain. You can't have a testimony unless you've been through a test. Blessings coming your way.

  3. Find rest when you can between treatments, and keep the faith.

  4. I've toyed with the idea of giving up meat too. It's really bad for the body, glad you are feeding on fruits and veggies. The best thing you can do. But I'm not ready to give up Burgers!

    I would like to check out Nikki Harris blog, is there a link?

  5. Hey
    Thanks for letting me know about Nikki. That was so surprising. I read her blog alot and she posted on mines often. She will definitely be missed. As for you, God got your back. By the way, the veggies and fruits are a good idea. I need to go back to that.