Thursday, May 7, 2009

Now what?

On Wednesday I went for genetic counseling and I was told that I have a strong possibility of carrying the gene that is synanamous with colorectal cancer. So they suggested that I take the test to assess it. Today while I was having my weekly labs I took that test as well and we will know the results in about two weeks. *sigh*

Once again I was told that cancer is not hereditary, that it is acquired.

Yall know how I feel about that acquired bs right?

Uh huh it still stands.

I have an 82% chance of carrying this fucked up gene.

I so am not trying to hear none of this mess!!!!!

But it's tripping me out big time.

I'm tired yall.

Just tired of all the tests and doctors and chemo.

I love my docs but I'm tired of going to the hospital every single week, sometimes 2 and 3 times a week.

I'm tired.

I am not giving up, oh helllllllllllzzzzzzzzz no.

I'm jus sayin'.

Keep ya girl in your prayers please.


  1. Your prayers are definitely in our hearts. No matter what the outcome may or may not be, if God brought you to it, he will bring you through it. Keep the faith. I know you're tired, but just hold on. I'm right here.

  2. Glad to hear from you. I don't blame you one bit, I would be fed up of being treated like a Lab rat or something. Just let you live dammit! I can't imagine having to go back and forth to the hospital as much as you do. I commend you on your strength and ability to endure. You shall remain uplifted in prayer.

  3. Father in the name of your son Jesus, I thank you for leading me to write this prayer to your daughter Bunny. Lord I pray as she reads these words guided by your WORD which returns not void, that it's very power will penetrate the situation that Lord you know very well. You see her day to day struggle, and how Lord she endures...Break the chains Lord, Break the hand of the enemy. Whatever force be it of darkness, we cast it down in the name of Jesus. For we believe.

    Touch Bunny in this moment, whereever she is, renew her strength, you said in your word 'they that wait upon the Lord shall renew their strength, they shall walk and not be weary, they shall run and not faint.'

    Show her the power of your hand on this day Lord, do something new, something fresh in her life, with long life show her your salvation!

    We give you the Glory, The Power, The Honor and The Praise. Amen.

  4. You're better than I am. I would probably refuse genetic testing.

    Remember that God is with you, and you have the prayers and support of family, friends, and the blogsphere. You are not alone!


  5. You are always in my prayers.